Have you ever had this conscious feeling that you're different?

Category: Teen Topics

Post 1 by dissonance (Help me, I'm stuck to my chair!) on Monday, 06-Jun-2005 19:18:13

Has it ever happened to any of you that as you are going to school, talking to friends, or simply hanging out with family, you've realized that there are still some instances where you don't completely blend in with the sighted world? Okay, there are times when someone is either holding something in front of my face, looking at me funny, or something else like that. Maybe I'm alone on this one, but for me there are still times when I feel like I am different from the sighted world, especially since I've hit teenage age.

Post 2 by Nem (I just keep on posting!) on Monday, 06-Jun-2005 19:27:36

Let me be the voice of reason. In your teen age years you are struggeling to find your nitch. Both sighted and blind teens are having the same problems. Congrats your fitting in as a normal teen ager. Everyone has obsticals some, teens have obsticals they can put their finger on, such as hair down there, or cracking voices, peoirds, and the such. In addition to all that as a blind person you have your blindness to contend with. Let me assure you we've all been there. Your not the first and you won't be the last. Fitting in is a state of mind. Not everyone is going to allow you into their click and sometimes you must form your own. Explore and have fun enjoy this time because all things must end and that's when life gets complacated.

D-

Post 3 by Inesle1987 (Account disabled) on Tuesday, 07-Jun-2005 16:23:53

At schooll, I have always been a kind of an outsider. I felt that I Was different, because I prefered to talk to older peoople. I mean, that changed now that I am 18, but earlier that was the case.

Post 4 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Wednesday, 08-Jun-2005 10:45:30

Yes when I was 5 and then again at 10

Post 5 by louiano (I'm going for the prolific poster awards!) on Wednesday, 08-Jun-2005 10:56:57

hmm, goblin... plz. lol. wow.... well, hmm, I enjoy talking to everyone for now, hmm, old people? well you have something to learn from them...

Post 6 by Inesle1987 (Account disabled) on Tuesday, 05-Jul-2005 7:01:44

I never felt like I was my age. All those people were giggly and i was always serious. It is better now with people in my age but earlier I did not want to talk to people in my age.

Post 7 by bermuda-triangulese (Help me, I'm stuck to my chair!) on Tuesday, 05-Jul-2005 7:18:31

yeah, always, I am uncomfortable with sighted peers in the extreme. Quote from that seether song, trhtuh, "I'm convinced on the inside, there's something wrong with me, convinced on the inside, here's so much wrong with me!

Post 8 by Twinklestar09 (I've now got the bronze prolific poster award! now going for the silver award!) on Tuesday, 05-Jul-2005 11:39:50

Well, when I was a teenager, I don't think I thought much of it, but when I look back now, I know I was different from my peers when I was growing up. I used to be really into reading and learning about lots of things, especially medical stuff. Although this may not be surprising, I would actually take the time to copy things by hand from my textbooks, make up worksheets and stories based on what I'd read, and read my textbooks )not to study anything specifically but just to find interesting parts) when we had nothing else to do in classes (while everyone else socialized or used that time to be somewhere else). Actually, although I wasn't interested, I had also once started to copy the periodic table because my teacher said I would need it. (I know I could've asked my vision teacher, and he eventually had asked her himself, but I honestly hadn't thought of it at the time.) Actually, 'til this day, I still love reading, and medical stuff still gets my attention. Another thing I think was weird was that I used to scream or cry with stuff that I don't think most children would make a big deal of, like hand dryers, cars, and a former teacher said she remembers me running away when I heard the mixer. I'm also sure I remember screaming or crying when the teachers had taken us on a field trip to an indoor themepark. The rides looked like they were going fast when I don't think they really were; I don't know why I made a big thing about them. And what's weird, I think, iis most of this all happened when I could still see some.
Leilani

Post 9 by Twinklestar09 (I've now got the bronze prolific poster award! now going for the silver award!) on Tuesday, 05-Jul-2005 11:49:58

Also, during middle school, I used to scratch my arms to where they'd get scabs. Actually, I don't know if it could've been something else or not, as I haven't had them since then either. But that, and at that time I also used to wear one of those sleep shade things over my eyes because the light hurt them a lot. Now that I think back on these 2 things also, I would never go out with scabs showing on my arms and wearing sleep shades. But then, although I had friends, I don't think I was colose to anyone much either, at least during middle and high school anyway.
Leilani

Post 10 by asdfghjkl (Account disabled) on Tuesday, 05-Jul-2005 14:51:40

Well, I like talking to older people as well, and usually boys, but they're being different now. Most girls are getting annoying as ever, but at least they accept me for who I am now...or pretend to. I can't stand them sometimes. I wish I could go back to the crowd I grew up with when I was little--boys. Outcasts. I felt comfortable around them. Some people say I'm popular - well, I don't really think so; I would just consider myself well known. For where there are a few people who like me, there are a few people who hate me. So what? I do feel different sometimes, but I've learned to accept it, for some of it, well, I just can't change it. Other - well, I could if I wanted to, but my aim isn't to be like everyone else in that way...hope this made sense.

Post 11 by Inesle1987 (Account disabled) on Tuesday, 05-Jul-2005 15:06:47

I agree Matt (what else would I do *grins*), I don't feel confortable with sighted, at least sighted young people. I always feel they would judge me too soon on looks or something, or ... I don't know, I just don't feel good in a group of them.

Post 12 by retrieverdog (when I'm in seventh hour, my work does show.) on Wednesday, 31-Jan-2007 20:04:46

Today in english class we were talking about tollerance. My teacher mentioned a bunch of different people and included blindness in her description. I could feel all eyes turn to me and I new that people thought of me as different. They don't realize that I'm not any different from them. The might say, well you can't see so you're different. But that's not so. I can do everything they can, just as good or better and that's why I'm different: not because I'm blind.

Post 13 by Reyami (I've broken five thousand! any more awards going?) on Saturday, 07-Apr-2007 5:16:41

I'm different in the sense that I can't see, but in middle and high school, people did stare and stuff, but that's only to be expected in that time. I just ignored it and went on my merry way, unless teasing got bad, which wasn't often.

Post 14 by Unreleased Secrets (Zone BBS Addict) on Saturday, 12-May-2007 16:41:23

I do feel different than most teenagers. I don't think it's because I'm blind though, I just don't fit in all the immature stuff they do. Come on, they're about 14 and their favourite game is... run away from others! It's dumb. With running away from others I mean running away from a friend and leaving them out. Anyway, I just feel different and I don't care. I'm a free thinking person and noone will ever change me. I don't enjoy alcohol or drugs, I hate beer and I'd always invite someone to parties even if they were dismissed by most of the people in my school.

Post 15 by Reyami (I've broken five thousand! any more awards going?) on Thursday, 17-May-2007 10:02:14

kind of like me, in a way, only I never really threw parties lol

Post 16 by Unreleased Secrets (Zone BBS Addict) on Friday, 18-May-2007 1:49:20

Me neither, haha

Post 17 by Unreleased Secrets (Zone BBS Addict) on Tuesday, 22-May-2007 4:39:11

When I said I'd invite people to parties, I ment birthday parties or whatever. I just don't feel like discriminating someone by their look or if most people don't like them. Ok, there is people I don't like, but I don't think I hate anyone. Like. If someone I don't like had a problem I'd still be there to help.

Post 18 by Siriusly Severus (The ESTJ 1w9 3w4 6w7 The Taskmaste) on Wednesday, 06-Feb-2008 20:56:03

urigx, exactly! People just don't get me! I am different in both of my actions, words, and blindness.

I feel I have these people being prejudice against me. It's pretty bad.

"Oh, it's that blind girl, lets go away!"

I am also not prejudice against anyone or anything. I seen too much to be.

Today this is what I heard.
"Oh, only valley girls are mean!"
and
"He's gay I want him away!"
WTF? How in the name of heaven did you have that idea!!!!? I know a lot of snide, prejudice, biased, and moronic people who aren't Valley Girls, thank you! I also know some bisexual and homosexual people, they are completely fine.
Yeah, I am the nerd of the school. Oh, yeah, also when people find out I talk to people I don't know online like you all they are all like astonished, and they go against me.

I also hang out with loads of people that most people don't want to hang around. My friends call me a true friend, because I do lots for them. I actually care more about them then myself. People hate me because of this. Snideness is one of my traits, because people have built that upon me. People just don't want to associate with me if I told them I hang out with people considered outcasts! Seriously, I think friends are friends, and if they could be liked then they will. I also do a lot more for my friends and I really just go along while leading them.